I'm going to a movie this weekend.

So...

Please make up something

To tell Dad and Mom.

Like I went shopping with a friend.

Yeah, yeah.

...Where's Kazuki?

Huh? Isn't he in his room?

Oh.

...I'm sure that Kazuki hates me...

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That's not true.

It is!

...He usually ignores me. I can't believe it... Seriously...

Mmm...

Kazuki

Kazuki-

Kazuki, can I come in?

You didn't reply, so I'm coming in.

Hey

Wah! You startled me! Whoa, what is it?

What are you listening to?

Something I borrowed from a friend.

Phew, you really startled me. Don't do that.

This isn't anything urgent. You really surprised me.

Your friend listens to old music?

The group he likes covered the original.

...So, what did you want?

Do I have some chore to do? Did I forget something?

No. Saeko said that she's going to the movies with her boyfriend this weekend.

With her boyfriend?

Hmph.

Kazuki

Earlier, you said... You have someone you love...

You don't know her, Nii-chan.

Is that so?

She's in my class.

Well, you seem like it's really troubling you.

R

Really? I think I'm normal.

Have you confessed to her?

She already has a boyfriend.

I see. That's... tough.

No, but I'm already

Totally, you know, past that.

So it's ok.

Just kidding...

H...

How do I talk to her normally...

How should I know!

I don't know her, right?

But, I'm sure that she, and everyone else around you, are worried about how gloomy you are.

Ah...

I know that you're annoyed, but don't be harsh on Saeko.

Ok?

O-Ok.

It's almost time for dinner,

So come downstairs and help out.

...I think he might have found out.

Ah, well, but I wonder

If he realized it.

Somehow...

What should I do?

If he did realize it,

Will my brother say anything to my sister?

Or did he come tonight to scold me?

In any case, thinking about protecting myself first like that,

And those sorts of thoughts

Isn't a very manly way of thinking.

But...

Hah...

Kazuki...

That guy...

Is he serious?

Hah...

Is that what he really thinks?

Please forgive me... Seriously...

So it's like that...

Ahh...

He's like that towards Saeko...

Ah...

I wonder if Nii-chan will tell Nee-chan?

No, before that, will he tell Dad?

But that's...

Ah, but I think falling in love is arbitrary, and I don't want to condemn Kazuki for that... It's not Saeko's or Kazuki's fault. I don't want to interfere any more.

But it's not wrong.

With just this, Kazuki...

Huh, you're already home? What about the movie?

Who cares about the movie!

Hah!

He was too nervous and we didn't talk about anything! All we did was watch the movie and go home!

What's with that?

Ah

It's a text.

Let me see.

Why would I, you idiot?

I'm going back to my room.

Ooph

Watch where you're going!

Geez.

Hehehe

That's disgusting.

There's some cake in the fridge. You can have some.

Yay!

I hate the things that Nee-chan likes.

Because I can't be them.

I hate the person Nee-chan likes.

Because I can't be him.

No matter what I do, no matter what mistakes there are,

I definitely cannot be them.

It's terrible...

It was the first time I ate blueberry cake.

I knew that I was bad with blueberries.

Kazuki, did you like blueberries?

By the second bite, I felt like throwing up.

But in the end, I ate all of it.

Ugh

What?

What are you doing?

I hate blueberries...

You should have said so earlier!

You should have switched with Saeko's shortcake.

Yeah.

Ummm...

Hmmm?

What if only I wasn't blood related...

Do you think that's possible?

Or something

Like that happened.

That didn't happen...

Yeah. I just wanted to try asking.

Your's and Saeko's faces are exactly the same.

Especially while you're sleeping.

Yeah...

And then, 4 months later,

During the 2nd semester,

I'm home...

Welcome home...

What happened to nee-chan?

Umm, she broke up with her boyfriend recently.

Eh?

It seems like they had a fight. I don't really know either.

I only heard about it last night.

The small sandbox in our yard,

Was so small that I could easily step over it with 1 step.

Nee-chan, you're muddy.

It's ok.

I'll wash it off later.

The feeling of confusion I had inside of me since I was a child turned into love.

Then it turned into something black, that pained me,

Sometimes, it was aimed at my sister, and had the effect of causing my brother to worry about me.

Now,

I can't be what my sister loves.

Ah, geez, how embarrassing.

I can't hurt her like this. I can't make her cry like this.

I felt like I now understood.

Really...

All the things that I had desperately tried to hide and keep anyone from discovering, now seemed idiotic.

Nee-chan, you can hug me once.

Eh? What? All right.

But I'm not that depressed. Really!

You're so kind, Kazuki.

That's not true...

Eh?

What?

Thank goodness... I always...

Thought that you...

You hated me...

I thought that maybe I did something to you without knowing it...

So I'm really happy... That you came...

Out to the yard... For me...

...Huh...?

Why would I hate you...?

My nose is running...

Eh! ...It's ok, but wipe it after.

Yeah.

Hah... Even when we were together, I always felt a little anxious.

Honestly, it was a little tough.

Your boyfriend?

"Ex boyfriend".

Ah, I see...

It was the end of my sister's love. It was the end of my love.

After that, many summers and winters passed.

My sister graduated from high school, and a short while later, got married.

Where's Kazuki?

Kazuki!

Kazuki!

Call him "uncle".

Mom, I'm home. Where's Kazuki?

Is he back yet?

Kazuki had too much free time, so he's cleaning the bath.

Ah, Onii-chan, it's been a long time. You're early.

Kazuki!

Nee-chan, I told you to keep an eye on your kid!

My sister's child looks a lot like her.

The father is unsociable, but my sister seems really happy.

Where's Papa?

Papa has work today!

When I see my sister happy, I also feel happy from the bottom of my heart.

Kazuki, let's go to the sandbox!

Ok! Let's make a tunnel!

Yay!

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"My Lost Diary"

I made it in time from the release of the first part... I haven't drawn that many of these kinds of stories, so I was nervous about the draw --> release.

I might have made a mistake about how I represented love, but I like the time when everything changes.