The desired university questionnaire?I haven't turned mine in.Me neither.Eh? Didn't you say you got into that university?Yeah.I did. But Sensei said-I didn't do good on that test either.The future.I think it must be nice to be a person with dreams and goals.They shine so bright.Classmates who do sports after school, covered in sweat.Classmates who diligently study late every night.Run first year!He's been on my mind every since I entered this school.Hasegawa-kun.He's on a "sports scholarship"so he's going to some college.I heard him talking about itWith the manager, his girlfriend, in the hallway before,As I was passing by.I don't know much about sports.And I've never talked to Hasegawa-kun, so I can't know for sure though.The Crying Call of a Baby Chick, Unable to Fly
First Part
Baby Chicken = "Hina"I'm home.AhHina-chan, I have to go out for a bit.Microwave something for dinner.Sorry.Ok.My parents are kind, and they've raised me so that I've never been in poverty.However, I myself...I'm below average in athletics and studying, and there's nothing in particular that I can be proud of...For example, being cool like someone popular.For example, being cute like an idolFor example, having the #1 grades in the school.For example, being able to do any sport.For example...When I keep on thinking "for example" "for example"I realize that I'm a human who can't do anything.This is reallyReally reallyScary.And thinking of what kind of person I'll become, or what kind of person I probably can't become...And while thinking that,Wondering if I should live or die,And when I imagine my future for a moment, and close my eyes and see darkness..."Is there even a bright path for me?"I whisper.There... Isn't a path.I... have no goal.Not tomorrow...Nor the day after tomorrow...Then...Since it will be the same no matter when I die,It could even be today.There probably isn't a single person at schoolWho will care that I'm gone.No.This is what I decided at the beginning.But living is scary.MomI wonder if you'll realize there's a letter in my bag.HahHahHahHahHuh?Am I supposed to cut it here?HahRather than cutting, maybe stabbing would be better.Would just cutting be enough...HaHahWaaaaaaah!Ow!Aaaahhhhh---HahHahCoughUghAh---!Seriously... Hah~!!SayamaAh... I made it in...Hah...This is the first time I've ever seen....Someone about to kill themselves...That's really scary... Really creepy...Ummm... I'm sorry, who are you?Are you someone from my school?Ah... Are you a relative?I'm sorry, my mom isn't here...Umm, Hinako-san?You're 18 years old right now?Is this the Heisei era?Sayama-san? Sayama Hinako? Is that right? I'm not mistaken, am I?I'm... Sayama Hinako, but...Thank goodness.I'm confiscating this box cutter.Ah! Your wrist is bleeding. I guess I wasn't in time after all.Ah...Hold it, hold it.Ah, but it looks like this will leave a wound.I have a band-aid, so I'll apply it.Umm... What class are you?Were we on a committee together?Me?I've come from the future. Though you don't have to believe that.I see."I see"...Ok.This is...More seriousThan I thought...Do you think I'm lying?If you think so, then honestly tell me.I don't... Think that.Ah, you don't. So you just weren't interested before.Well that's perfect.Listen to half of my story.I've come to change your future.I can't tell you the year I'm from or my name.But let's get along.Ok.I'm a human who has a deep connection with the future you.Well... To put it simply, I'm a blood relative.Before, you seemed like you were going to be killed.What...?You're a person who sometimes, for a short while, can't stand you and your environment, and want to end it.Before, you looked like you were going to kill yourself, and I'm not sure if you realized it.You were about to destroy your own path yourself.Uhh... I can't really put it into words to well...But if you do so...The people who exist in the correct future... For example, "me", will disappear.You were about to mistakenly embark on gloomy future.It's annoying.Hina-chan,What do you want to be when you grow up?I...Umm, oh... A florist!Annoying... What... It's my life.When and where it's ended...Has nothing to do with anyone else?I saidThat it's an annoyance!Why do you only think of such gloomy things?Are you really a blood relative of mine?I don't know...But I can't imagine that there's anyone who would fall in love with someone like me.I don't have any goals or dreams or desired school or anything in front of me.And I just say whatever to the teachers and my parents...And I don't want children either.I don't have the self confidence to raise them well.I don't have the self confidence to not abuse them.That's why I should end it with myself.What would you do if you were related to such a girl?And that you came from the future? That's probably a lie too.You were just made to say that as some sort of punishment game right?I don't know what class you're from,but you'd tell them that I had believed that,And afterwards they all would laugh at me anyways.Hinako-san, could it be that you're being bullied?I've never been bullied...Just ignored and talked about behind my back...Sometimes...Get it?The more you think you want to die, the more the correct future disappears.The future that's in front of you will vanish.I've come to guide you to the correct future.I'm a hero, so to speak. A saving hero.Let's walk together on your bright path....What, a hero?You just want to live.You just want me to live for your own circumstances.You don't care about my feelings at all...You really are a bother...Ah, you started to believe!You're started to believe that I come from the future just now!You were only saying gloomy things, so I thought I wouldn't be able to have a conversation with you, but now it's possible.Sorry, butI'm not going to disappear.There are things I want to do.Therefore,Let's repave that crumbling path.WellThat's impossible to do in a second.I'm here now, but soon enoughI'll have to vanish.How selfish.What a selfish person.Maybe I am too...I want to name myself, but if I do, it will be a hinderance.So "Saki" is fine. Because I come from the "future".
Future = saki."Future"...Is there even a future for me?Do you want to ask anything?Then... Who and when will I marry?How many children will I have?And what about a job?Actually, show me some proof.You have a photo or something, right?I...I can't tell you those things.You should look forward... Ah!You won't have as much to look forward to! So I can't!If you don't have any proof, then I can't believe you.Or perhaps was I raped?If that's the case, I would understand.But would that result be "the correct and bright future"?Rap...No... That shouldn't happen but...No... But what would it...Sayama Hinako... Hinako...Hmm...? Ummm...When I think of how she said something so bold as I've come from the future,But how she's faltering when faced with this question, this girl who seems to be the same age as me...She's weird.But she doesn't seem like a bad person.Then just tell me this.Are you my child?I wonder?In the end, you aren't answering anything.Your hand's back to normal.Ah, it is.That's because you're not thinking of death, Hinako-san.Oh, so you still don't believe me? I've really come from your future.I'm sorry I can only give you such a suspicious explanation.I thoughtYou were a magician...By the way,Do you have someone you like or someone you're dating? For example, someone from school...In this period,Love letters are popular, right?There's someone who's on my mind...I guess.... But... I'm... Not trendy...Hina-chanI forgot my purse.Oh, welcome.Ah...Uh...Umm... This is my classmate Saki-chan.Today...We promised to do homework together.She came by earlier.Oh, is that so? Good luck.Take your time.Oh my, look at the time.Thank you...SlamHinako-san, you're a good kid when you're in front of your mother.She's not my true parent.We don't look alike at all.But,I love her.She's kind and sometimes she scolds me.But still you want to die?Since you aren't her real child,She won't mourn for you?That's......Hinako-san, you said before that you have someone you like.I didn't say that.You did.Are you close to that person? Do you chat a lot?I've never talked to him once... He probably doesn't remember my name.That's why... Sorry, I've never discussed this...Also, he already has a girlfriend...That's why...Eh, you like him even though you've never talked to him!?Why why!?"Why"? It's not like...Doesn't that mean that it's that?It's not that at all. Are you listening to me? I said he has a girlfriend.But if you confess, maybe he'll break up with her because of it.Umm... No way. That's definitely... Impossible.There's no such thing as impossible. Hinako-san, why do you think there's only one path?You have to make your own bright path. And somewhere along it, I'll be there, so do your best.I don't care if you don't believe me, so do your best.A bright path...Mine, into the future?The bright path that I myselfWas about to destroy...?Whether she came from the future,Whether it's ok to change the past,Whether I should believe what this person's saying at all.There's just too many suspicious things, but...The women in our familyAll have a beauty mark on the bottom of their feet.What about you?A secret that I've never told anyone because I hated being teased......I have one.Then,Maybe your real mother has one too.For that to continueEven to meIs kind of mysterious....IfYou didn't make it in time beforeAnd I... died,What would happen?The history of you not being alive would continue.And I wouldn't be here either.And maybe I'd be born in a different form.But then... That's fine, right...Why do you specifically want to make me live?That's...Hmmm....You're a very unreliable...Hero.I've never spoken to the boys in my class.But still,Is there a bright path waiting for me?Of course!Because I'm certain that your husband was a classmate...Ah!That was something I shouldn't have said...Forget it, forget it...Forget... That's... Impossible.Are people from the future... So loose-lipped...But that's...Could it be... Hasegawa-kun...If so... Maybe... I should talk to him..."Saki" told me to walk along the bright path to the future.If I don't do so, the future that she should exist in will be destroyed by me.I just was mistakenly choosing the gloomy path.When I listen to that, mysteriously the gloomy feelings fade.But I still don't believe it.She seemed to be something strange as far as my life goes.Something strange, which is called light.Continued
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