The first time I really felt 'Ah, I'm alone'

Was when I realized that only my name had suddenly disappeared from the school trip group.

It's not that I wasn't sad,

It's just that since I had always been part of the group

My utter bewilderment was much greater.

Eh, no way, seriously-

It's true, and then-

Ah, good morning...

...So, did you see this?

Ah, I know, it's cute~

It's cute~

Even my voice doesn't reach them anymore.

The Classmate Who Broke Alone Last Part

Ah, I forgot my dictionary again.

How stupid of me.

Geez...

I have go to the library before class begins.

Ah, I forgot my dictionary.

There's lots of different kinds.

Y, Yeah.

Ah, it seems like we can use this for class.

Oh really. Thanks.

Well... Hahaha

We only use a dictionary occasionally, so I forget it.

By the way, Mitaka-san

You've been by yourself a lot lately.

Eh... I guess so.

Ah, am I wrong? If so, I'm sorry.

I thought you might have had a fight with your friends.

We didn't have a fight.

That wasn't a fight.

Because I thought there was no way to "make up".

And then inevitably

I had more chances to talk to Wakaba.

Though I say that, unlike my old group,

We didn't play around or go shopping or anything.

I wonder if I'm impeding on Wakaba's alone time.

I was ostracized and drew closer to her.

I wonder if I'm thought of as an annoying person...

But I can't just ask her "do you like talking with me?"

I'm way too self conscious...

Earlier, you went to the library with Hazama-kun, didn't you.

Eh... Y, Yeah! Hazama-kun also forgot his dictionary so we went to borrow them together...

Heh.

That's good.

Was she chatting just now?

It seemed like she was talking to me without any interest in it, but

"Heh. That's good."

I think that's just how she is.

I only think about how to always match the other person.

Every time I'm told that it's weird, I realize my real motive.

But Wakaba...

What are you staring at? That's disgusting.

Eh!

D, Don't say that. It hurts...!

But you were silently staring.

I, I was thinking about lots of stuff.

Like what? How you were extravagantly ostracized?

Th...!

Geez...

Ah, class is about to start.

By the way,

Even though Wakaba treats the other girls pretty politely,

She's relatively cold to me.

But

Mitaka-san, please give me some pencil lead later.

Every time she talks to me,

It can't be helped.

It feels like

Unlike a group,

We have a different kind of relationship.

I think of Wakaba as a friend,

But does she think of me as a friend?

Huh, I don't have any more notebooks..

I have to go buy some.

Mitaka-san, are you free?

Now?

Now, and onward. After school.

Yeah, I don't have anything special.

I see.

...Eh?

I'm going to the stationery store.

? ...Ok.

Could it be I'm being invited to go shopping?

What are you going to buy?

Pencil lead.

Ok, I was thinking of buying a notebook.

I see.

Yeah.

Wakaba-san, you're terrible at inviting people.

Whatever, hurry up.

Eh...

There were only 10 more days until the school trip.

Of course, I still felt distant from Wakaba.

I wanted to be in the same group.

But I was afraid of being rejected.

But maybe, doesn't Wakaba also

Want to be friends?

Mitaka-san

While it might have been meddlesome, I was thinking that.

Mitaka-san

Mitaka-san

...Eh?

Hurry up and turn in your school trip group form.

You're the only girl who's late.

Yeah, sorry...

"Mitaka-san"...

Here.

Eh

It says alone.

Eh... I can't be alone?

No, it's not that you can't, but...

Alone.

Yeah, "alone".

You're the ones

Who made me alone.

But even if I say that now,

I probably won't win with just my words, so I stayed quiet.

But it was vexing.

Actually, since you're leftovers, you should group up with Wakaba.

Ah, I see. Leftovers grouping up would make it

Much easier to create the group list.

How about you read the atmosphere?

That's great.

You didn't respond.

Uh... No.

I just couldn't respond.

Well, that's fine too.

Nothing good will come from making trouble from a prank.

I used to think of you

As someone who had to be with other people.

I thought you might start skipping school, or hide out in the nurse's office.

But now you can let it roll off of you.

Even though they were people you had been close to until recently. It's amazing.

Eh, no, why all of a sudden

It's not amazing.

Actually, just now, I wanted to cry a little.

But if you cry, they'd pull away.

That kind of entrance and exit.

E, Even if they didn't pull way, wouldn't it be bad?

I knew that Wakaba thought of me like that.

I myself also slowly realized my own situation.

Now, I certainly am alone, but unlike how I imagined it, there wasn't nothing.

Mitaka-san, do you have a minute?

1 week before the school trip.

Eh, me?

Are you busy?

N, No, not really, it's ok.

Library

It's been on my mind for a long time.

How should I put it.

Sorry for being so sudden.

It's...

...Ah.

Sorry, I don't really know.

I see! Well, it seemed like you were the closest to her.

So I thought maybe you knew.

Does Wakaba-san have anyone she likes, or is she going out with anyone?

Eh... Really? We're not that close.

Wah

Ah

What am I saying...

We're in different groups for the school trip...

Umm... We really haven't talked about that sort of thing.

Ah, just shut up, shut up!

I see.

If all you can say is this in this voice, then shut up.

Ah, but it seems the isn't anyone.

Hazama-kun is bothered.

Good morning, Mitaka-san.

Good morning...

I think of Wakaba as a friend.

The fact that it can't be helped if I'm cold to her,

The fact that I was thinking of inviting her to be in the same group for the school trip,

All of those slowly swirled around inside of me,

And in the end, I behaved in the worst way.

It's fine. Wakaba surely likes being alone.

Like all of the girls in the class say, she and I are loners.

In any case, from the very start,

She didn't see me as a friend, just someone who was ostracized and was pathetic...

If I act like I'm ignoring her,

Then she won't get close to me.

She didn't ask me anything.

It's one-sided, but that somehow pissed me off.

It's not Wakaba-san's fault

That Hazama-kun has no interest in me.

And it isn't her fault that I was ostracized.

But still, I'm treating Wakaba-san poorly. I'm the worst.

I'm the same as all the other girls.

When I thought that, I felt sad.

Even sadder than when I had been removed from my group.

4 days before the school trip.

The girls' room assignments are set, so gather around.

It's mostly split into 4 or 5 people.

What about 3 people?

Hey, isn't 7 people too many?

3 people are combined with 2 people.

7 people are split up.

I guess they'll let me into some half filled one.

Ah, single people.

Whoa, what a pain.

We only have 4 people, but we don't want her.

Have her join a 3 person one.

Ah

Even though I was ok up until now,

Why are my legs shaking

All of a sudden?

If we can't decide by today, it'll be random.

Huh? You gotta be kidding.

1 person.

That's...

Hurry up and do something about the loners.

Haha

I don't fit in any girls' group, and I even behaved coldly towards Wakaba.

If she's a leftover, then she's left over. A remainder.

Left over?

Yeah.

Hey

At least look at me when you talk.

It's not like someone-

Say it to my face.

What do I want to do? What am I desperately trying to endure?

What do I want to do here?

I want to apologize to Wakaba.

Mitaka-san

Apologize, and be in the same group.

Are you coming on the school trip?

O

Owwww!

What are you doing! I can't believe it.

That really hurt!

Are you crazy!?

It's the same violence.

Everyone was hitting Mitaka-san.

A lot.

"Nothing good will come from making trouble from a prank."

"I'm the type that can't cry or get angry easily."

Whether it's 1 person or 5 people or 3 people, nothing changes.

In the end, 5 people are just 1 person grouped together 5 times.

"That's good."

"That's good."

"Earlier, you went to the library with Hazama-kun, didn't you."

Ah... Wait, Wakaba!

Wait! I'll tell the teacher!

You'll be expelled! Expelled!

You're the worst, you violent woman!

Wakaba-san...

Mitaka! This is also your fault.

I don't want to be in the same room as those 2.

U, Umm, if you tell the teacher

I think the room assignments will be random.

And it's not like she hit you without reason.

And then who started it will come out.

Library

I think they probably won't tell the teacher.

Did I do something to you, Mitaka-san?

I don't really know

how to become close with somebody

So

If I did something weird without realizing it, I'm sorry.

Even though Wakaba didn't do anything wrong,

I made her apologize

When I can't see the other person's face, I get uneasy.

I don't even know if they're angry or anything.

I don't want to talk to her back.

Wakaba-san, you didn't do anything...

I just...

Felt a little overwhelmed about something else.

And then I one-sidedly got angry at you for no reason.

I'm sorry.

......I see.

...Why did you protect me earlier?

Isn't that making trouble?

I wasn't protecting you. I just got angry.

It has nothing to do you with you.

So this is a problem between me and the other girls aside from you.

It has nothing to do with you.

She's terrible.

Terrible at protecting...

I thought you were crying.

Why?

Because if it was me, I would cry.

I'm not you.

You protected me, right?

Before, you tried to protect me.

But I didn't want to get you involved in it.

So I put on an unpleasant attitude.

It always bothered me...

I don't know what you're talking about.

I forgot.

If you forgot, then it's fine. But I was still like that.

Your...

I couldn't ignore them badmouthing you.

In the end, I caused trouble to you

I'm sorry.

I didn't think it was an annoyance. You one-sidedly deciding it was an annoyance

Is much more of an annoyance.

On the school trip, let's go around together.

We'll be in different groups though.

It will be a solo group.

Yes, a solo group.

A solo group, huh.

Hey, I laughed a little. It's not a "group".

What should we do about the room assignments?

We're single people, so we can join wherever.

Anywhere where there aren't enough people.

But it would be nice if there was a place with 2 empty slots.

When I said it will be a little tough to go back to the classroom,

Then what will happen to me? Wakaba said with a slight smile.

In everyone else's perspective, she and I are both "alone".

And in school, that might be a bad thing.

And then, when I told her that I was rejected by Hazama-kun,

She gave a worried look, and without meeting my eyes, she just said "good luck".

She a person who's really terrible at protecting and comforting others.

I don't think that not being able to easily make friends is weird.

In the future, even if we lack something in the same manner,

Even if we would be hurt,

Surely, in the future, I think we will grow closer.

This is surely what they call "friends".

We will be changing classes soon.

It will be more convenient if we're in different classes.

In times when we forget our textbooks and such.

Normally,

It's supposed to be

"I hope we're in the same class again."

Ah, but even when we become 3rd years,

We'll still be close.

I still don't understand Wakaba-san.

Mitaka-san, are you free today?

I'm free.

I see.

Where should we go?

The Classmate Who Broke Alone The End

The Classmate Who Broke Alone

This turned out a little longer than usual. Good job and thank you for reading until the end.

I haven't turned a lot of my experiences from school into mangas, but when I thought of times when my classmates got really angry, I remember this one person during high school who made a mistake during cooking class.

Even though we decided on who would cook the rice 1 week earlier, this person said on that day "Eh? What are you talking about?" and didn't do it at all, and the entire class made a lot of trouble for that person.

'What were you listening to?' 'You're the worst.' 'Just what were you listening to, it's been 1 week.' 'People in the same class covered for you, so you seemed ok. What were you doing?' 'What are you doing, eating rice all proud?' Well, it was me.

I thought I might die.