My lover is

...carefree.

In contrast to that

I am pessimistic, gloomy...

And deeply jealous.

I wonder if my power affects my personality.

Or the other way around.

Unable to reach a clear answer even if I think about it

I curse my power and myself.

And so

I keep finding fault with Yuugi

over every trivial thing.

I've been resting on my laurels as a lover

and getting overly dependent as of late...

With things like this

even a heavy-drinking carefree oni like her

is perhaps...

Probably...

No, definitely...