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ใใบใจใฎๆ ไบใฎ่ฃๅดใ
ๆ่ฟใๅฝผใจใใบใ่ท้ขใ่ฟใใ ๅ ใ ๅฝผใใฏใใบใๅฝผใใใใใใๅฝผใใใใซๅๅฟใใใฆใใไบใๆใพใๅฃใใใใๅใๆงใชๅญๅจใงใใใ ็พๅจใ่กจ้ข็ใซใฏไปฅๅใจๅคใใใชใใฎใงใใใ ใใพใซ็ฑใฃใฝใ่ฆ็ทใๆททใใๅใใใฆใใใใ ๆๆ็ใซๅ ็ทใงไบไบบใงๆใใใใใใใพใใงใไบไบบใ ใใฎ็งใไบใใใใใฎๆงใซใ ๅฝผใฏใใใกใฎๅฏบใงไฟฎ่กใใใใใจใใฃใฆๆฅใ้ๅนดใงใ ่ชฌๆณใใใ่ใใ็ใๆฌใ(ใใบใฏๅฅใงใใใ)่่กใซใพใใใซๅใ็ตใใงใใพใใใ ใใใชใฒใๅใใใซ็งใฏๆๅฟใใฆใไบบ้ใชใใๅฝผใๅฐๆฌใใฆใใใฎใงใใ ใใใชๆฐๆใกใใใใคใใใๅฝผใจๅใ็ฉบ้ใซๅฑ ใใ ใใงๅฟๅฐ่ฏใๆใใใใใซใชใใ ใใใชๆฐๆใกใใใคใใๆฐใฅใใฐใใปใปใปๅฝผใฎไบใใฐใใใ่ใใฆใใฆใ ใใบใฏใใใช็งใฎๅฝผใซๅฏพใใๆฐๆใกใซๆฐใฅใใใใใงใ ใใใชใใซใใฎๆฐใใใใฎใชใใใใฎๆฐๆใกใซ็ด ็ดใซใชใใใฉใใใ็ๅฃใซ่ใใในใใงใใ ใๅฑ ๅฟๅฐใฎใใ็ถๆณใใใคใพใงใ็ถใใจๆใใชใๆนใใใใ ใใจๅฟ ๅใใฆใใใพใใใ ใงใใใใชไบใฏๆๅใงใใใ ๅฝผใฏไบบ้ใงใ็งใฏๆฏๆฒ้ๅคฉใฎไปฃ็ใ็ญใใฏๅใใใฃใฆใใพใใ ใใใซ็งใฏใไปใฎ้ขไฟใซๆบ่ถณใใฆใใใฎใงใใ ๅฝผใฎๅใซใชใใจใชใ็งใๅฑ ใใใใใ ใใง่ฏใใฃใใฎใงใใ ใใฎใพใพไฝใใชใใใใฎ่ท้ขๆใงใใคใพใงใใใใใฆใใใใใ ใใๆใฃใฆใใพใใใ ๆ่ฟๅคใซใชใใจใใบใใใฃใใใจๅฝผใฎ้จๅฑใซ่จชใใพใใ ใใใไธๅฏฉใซๆใฃใฆใๅฝผใฎ้จๅฑใ่ฆใใฆใฟใพใใใใใใจใ ใใบใฏๅฝผใฎ่ใซๅบงใฃใฆใๆฑใใใใใใฆใๅใชใๅฃฐใไธใใฆใใพใใใ ใใใช็ใใใใบใฏไปใพใงไธๅบฆใ่ฆใไบใใใพใใฆใๅฝผใซใใใช้กใ่ฆใใใชใใฆใใๅพใชใใ ๅฝผใซใ็ใใฆใใใใบใฏใพใใงใๆไบบใซ็ใใปใปใปใใใ ๅซใ ใใใใชใใฎ่ฆใใใชใใ ็งใฏใๅใๆฐใๅฌใใฆใใพใใใ็ฎใฎๅใฎๅ ๆฏใใๆชๅคขใฎใใใงใปใปใปใ ใไปๆฅใฏๅใ่ฑใใใฆใใใใใ๏ผใ ใจใใบใ่จใฃใฆใๅฝผใใใใไบๆฟใใฆใใใบใฎ่กฃ้กใ่ฑใใๅงใใพใใใ ใใไปฅไธใฏ่ฆใฆใใใใใ็งใฏใใฎๅ ดใๅปใใพใใใ ๆฐๆใกใๆชใใฃใใฎใงใใๆฐๆใกใๆชใใฆใๆชใใฆใ ใชใไฝๆ ใๅฝผใใไฝๆ ใใบใจใใใใฆใใใใชไบใใๅพใชใใปใปใปใ ๆฐๆใกใๆชใๆฐๆใกใๆชใๆฐๆใกใๆชใๆฐๆใกใๆชใๆฐๆใกใๆชใใใฃใตใๆฐๆใกใๆชใๆฐๆใกใๆชใใใฃใตใๆฐๆใกใๆชใๆฐๆใกใๆชใๆฐๆใกใๆช
Nazu's affair from the other side.
He and Nazu have gotten a lot closer lately. It used to be Nazu would make fun of him, and he would come back with words just as vicious. It was much the same now as it was then, but every once in a while the two of them would share fevered glances, or sometimes they would both disappear. It was like there was a secret shared only by the two of them.
He was a young man who came to the temple to study. He paid attention to the sermons, was respectful to all (except Nazu), and trained hard to endure the asceticism. I respect that kind of dedication, so I respected him even though he was a human. That respect grew into a comfortable feeling whenever he was around, without me even realizing it. By the time I did realize it, I was thinking only of him. Nazu noticed my new feelings for him.
"If you're going to go after him, you need to consider carefully whether those feelings are honest or not. You shouldn't assume that that cozy feeling will last forever," is the advice she gave me.
But it was such foolishness. He is a human, and I am an acting Bishamonten. The answer is clear. I'm satisfied with the current relationship. For whatever reason, he is near me. Just that was enough. The way things are now is nothing. This separation can go on forever. That was my belief.
That night Nazu crept away to go to his room. I thought this was strange, so I peeked into the room after her. She was sitting in his lap, and he was holding her close. I sobbed. It was impossible for that freeloader Nazu to be doing what I saw, much less doing it with him. He and the freeloading Nazu, behaving like carefree lovers... no. No! I don't want to see that. I felt like throwing up. It unfolded in front of me like a nightmare...
"Why don't you take my clothes off today?" Nazu said. He agreed and began to help her strip.
I pulled back and left, unable to watch anymore. I hated it. I hated it, and despised it, and.. w-why did he... why with Nazu? Stop it! This isn't possible... I hate it. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it! Hate it, hate it, hate it, hate, hate, hate, I hate!
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