「あいつを裏切りたくないんです」

がんばった。本当にがんばったから、もう頑張らなくていいからね。
もう何も怖いことなんてないからね。

１１話でだいぶ踏ん切りがついて本編を受け入れられるようになったけど二次創作では生かすからな。

"It's because I don't want to betray him."

He did his best. Because he truly did his best, it's OK he didn't do better, right?
Now he's got nothing to be afraid of anymore, right?

With episode 11, I'm basically finished with the main story-line now, and have come to accept it, but I'll be keeping him alive in my alternative fiction.