And when Ooi decided to chase after Kitakami, it took such brutal training to finally get there that she would regularly puke blood in the process.

She really suffered through carrying a burden that heavy kuma.

You should have realized it sooner kuma. Your admiration for Kitakami's ability

and the desperation of being absolutely unable to achieve what she did.

The inability to reconcile those two manifested as feedback when you tried to undergo Kai-ni

and in the end, caused it to go out of control.

Even if you weren't using Torpedo Cruiser equipment, Kai-ni is just too dangerous for you to use as you are now kuma.

So please, don't aim to use Torpedo Cruiser equipmentKitakami's ever again. With how unstable you are, you're only going to end up destroying yourself.