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『(ゆさゆさ)』
むらむら「・・・・・?」
『(ゆさゆさ)』
むらむら「・・・・・・・・わ、私・・・眠っていて・・・・?」
『・・・・・』
むらむら「・・・何?、誰か、居るの・・・?」
むらむら「・・・・ん、私・・・、ここはどこ・・・?・・・・どうしてこんな所に来てしまったんだっけ?。・・・・・・・・ええと・・・・・そうか・・・ヲ級ちゃんに撃たれちゃって、海に落ちて、体が動けなくなってそのまま・・・」
むらむら「・・・あはは・・・ついに私も成仏しちゃった訳か。・・・もう世にしがみついている理由はないもんね。成仏しても、意識は消滅しないもんなんだなあ・・・それとも、まだ何か未練でもあるのかしら・・・?・・・別に私はもうでうでもいいんだけどね。・・・世に留まっても、もう無意味だってわかっちゃったし・・・。」
むらむら「・・・私、ほんの若いうちに死んじゃって、自分の人生謳歌出来なかった腹いせに一杯一杯人を殺した。・・・でも、聖と出会った。私が腹いせに人を殺していた事、私が抱えていた事、全て聖は見通して、私と向き合って、受け止めてくれた。そればかりか、聖は船の船長という、私が納得いく役割を示してくれた。全自動の船だけど、生前はそういうものに憧れていたし、船長も悪くは無いと思ったしね。腹いせに人を殺し続けるよりも余程有意義だと思えたから。・・・でも、全自動の船の船長という、ほんのちっぽけな役割は、私に人殺しを忘れさせてくれて、私は、煩悩から救われたんだ。・・・だから・・・あの子達にも、そういう思いをして欲しい。「させたかった」・・・なんて、欲が沸いたんだ・・・。私も救われたんだから、あの子達も同じ様に救われる。なんてね・・・。でも、それは、私の独りよがりだった。あの子達を通して、自分の生き方を自分で肯定したかっただけなんだ。・・・酷い奴だよ。私。人殺しをしていた時から何も変わらない。自分の事ばかり・・・。自分の事ばかり考えて、他人迷惑をかけてめちゃくちゃにかき回すだけなんだよ。・・・私なんて居なくなった方がみんなの為なんだよ・・・消えてなくなって、成仏してしまった方が・・・」
『ガシッ』
むらむら「何っ?」
『(ぐいぐい)』
むらむら「ちょっと、ひっぱらないで・・・」
むらむら「ちょっと、ちょっと・・・どこに連れて行くのよ・・・・私は・・・もう・・・」
[*shake shake*]
Muramura: . . . . . ?
[*shake shake*]
Muramura: . . . . . . . . I- I’ve... fallen asleep....?
( . . . . . )
Muramura: . . . huh? Is someone here...?
Muramura: . . . . ng, I’m . . . where is this...? . . . . Why did I come to a place like this? . . . . . . . . hmm..... Is that so... I was shot by Wo-class-chan, fell down the ocean, and by the time my body became immobilized . . .
Muramura: . . . ahaha . . . I’ve ended up entering Nirvana at last, huh. ...Since I don’t have a reason to cling to the world anymore. Because when one enters Nirvana, their consciousness won’t disappear, right. Or could it be that, I still have some lingering attachment . . . ? . . . Though it doesn't matter anymore to me. ...Even if I remained to live, I already know that it’s meaningless . . .
Muramura: . . . I've; died when I was really young, couldn’t enjoy my life from killing lots and lots of people in spite. ...However, I met Hijiri. Even though I’ve killed human, despite what I had; Hijiri out-looked all of that, faced me, and accepted me. Not only that, Hijiri denoted that I have a convincing role as a captain of the ship. It’s a full-auto ship, but I’ve been yearning for such a thing in life; so I thought being a captain wasn’t too bad. It’s also because I think that it’s much more significant than continuing to kill people because of grudge.
However, as a captain of a full-auto ship, even though it’s a puny role, it made me forget the me who was a murderer; I was saved, from worldly desires. ...That’s why . . . I want those children, to think like that too. “I wanted to...” ...I said, from having a surge of greed. It’s also because I was saved; I want to save those children in the same way.
. . . That was what I wanted.
But that was my self-righteousness. I just wanted them to affirm their own way of life by themselves, through those children. ...I’m really, an awful guy. Nothing has changed from when I was a murderer.
...About nothing but myself. Thinking about nothing but myself; I caused complete agitation and applied trouble to others. ...I, who no longer exist, did this for the sake of everyone. ...As I’m disappearing, having to enter Nirvana...
[*tug*]
Muramura: What-?
[*pull pull*]
Muramura: Wait, don’t pull on me...
Muramura: Wait, wait . . . Where are you going to take me? . . . I’m . . . already . . .
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